Well.... here we are, 30 days. I did not really complete my original plans for the 30 days CrossFit, Paleo diet and no TV. I would say I followed the plan maybe 50% of the time, probably less if I am being really honest with myself and you :)).
I don't regret starting this blog even if I did not complete what I originally set out to do. Forcing myself to be honest, not just with anyone reading but myself really. I have taken some ups and downs the last month as I have been on this journey and I am truly thankful that I took it with you!
Thanks to everyone reading. Many of you did not just read but encouraged and supported me. Words can not fully describe how much I appreciate all of you!!
This is not the end however. I don't see myself necessarily writing everyday, but I will write a couple of times a week to keep everyone up-to-date with what is happening with me. After all, this is just a chapter at the beginning of an amazing life God has for me. It might not always look like I want it to, but it is beyond all my dreams and imagination (which are pretty big).
"God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us." Ephesians 3:20 (MSG)
Until next time...
Alicia
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Monday, August 20, 2012
Day 29
Finally, after over a week of not going, I went to CrossFit today. Yeah me!! As always I was glad that I went. This week is more of a skill building week. Not to say it did not kick my butt, just not as bad. I am definitely feeling it tonight. In class, I am always so self conscience because most of the people have been doing CrossFit for a while now. So I tend to try and hide myself in the sidelines behind a pillar. (Something I feel like I have done with many other areas of my life as well.) I think maybe because there were only a handful of us in the class today the trainer, Sara, would not have it. She actually called me out at one point when we were skill building Double Unders (jump rope). She said "Alicia quit hiding, no more hiding". Then she made me stand right in front of her. When she said that it made me see even more clearly how so often I hide myself. I MUST quit hiding!! Not really sure how to even do that to be honest. I feel like if people don't see me, really see me then they won't be disappointed. Maybe I would even be disappointed. Working on it. As I am going through this journey, why is it that I feel like my "work on it" list is bigger then when I started???
On a different note, today was my nephew Craig's first day of College. I am so proud of him!! He was a little nervous today but I know that he will do amazing!! It was a bitter sweet day for my sister Kari however, which I am sure any mom would understand.
Ok off to bed I go!
-Alicia
On a different note, today was my nephew Craig's first day of College. I am so proud of him!! He was a little nervous today but I know that he will do amazing!! It was a bitter sweet day for my sister Kari however, which I am sure any mom would understand.
Ok off to bed I go!
-Alicia
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Day 28
I love my church!! Went to the 10 am service with my friend Jacob where Kevin brought a great word about Leadership. He said that the Hebrew definition of a leader is: Someone who breaks through a barrier or lifts a canopy of oppression so that others can reach their destinies. So good!!
I went back to church for the 4 pm & 6pm services to help on the stage managers team. Carl's message was amazing as well!! He did a continuation of "We've go to Climb Higher". He talked about 2 types of Baggage that we must surrender.
1) Baggage called misdirection - Your calling is solid. Make sure that your compass is as well. Keep pointed at Jesus.
2) Baggage called doubt - God is able to take you higher but you have to starve your fear and feed your faith or it is going to be a short climb.
Doubt does not have to determine your destiny!!
Good day, good day!
Love to all!
-Alicia
I went back to church for the 4 pm & 6pm services to help on the stage managers team. Carl's message was amazing as well!! He did a continuation of "We've go to Climb Higher". He talked about 2 types of Baggage that we must surrender.
1) Baggage called misdirection - Your calling is solid. Make sure that your compass is as well. Keep pointed at Jesus.
2) Baggage called doubt - God is able to take you higher but you have to starve your fear and feed your faith or it is going to be a short climb.
Doubt does not have to determine your destiny!!
Good day, good day!
Love to all!
-Alicia
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Day 26 & 27
Honestly I don't really remember what I did yesterday. Obviously not much worth remembering :)...
Today was kind of a roller coaster day. Malachi and I took turns filming our monologues for the first time. I feel like this exercise will be great for both of us. We can really see how we are coming across, even without the fancy cameras, lighting and such. Yeah, I definitely need to work on it some more. Next week we will have 2 monologues each to film. We are working our way up to four monologues. Then hopefully we can move onto scenes. Which might be a bit tricker since someone will have to film. I do have a tri-pod so maybe that will work.
Latter in the day I met Susan Rivas. She is the sister of some great ladies that I know from Bethel in CA. She just moved to NY about a week ago to pursue performing arts. I feel like in some ways our stories are similar and it was great to see someone from home. If you think about it please pray for her to have clear direction and open doors as she is feeling out the city. I think that she will do great here!!
My friend Doug Addison has be posting Prophetic Words of the day and today's was:
"Connecting with people will renew your vision this weekend. Rise above your current situation and watch God move."
So good!!
~Alicia
Today was kind of a roller coaster day. Malachi and I took turns filming our monologues for the first time. I feel like this exercise will be great for both of us. We can really see how we are coming across, even without the fancy cameras, lighting and such. Yeah, I definitely need to work on it some more. Next week we will have 2 monologues each to film. We are working our way up to four monologues. Then hopefully we can move onto scenes. Which might be a bit tricker since someone will have to film. I do have a tri-pod so maybe that will work.
Latter in the day I met Susan Rivas. She is the sister of some great ladies that I know from Bethel in CA. She just moved to NY about a week ago to pursue performing arts. I feel like in some ways our stories are similar and it was great to see someone from home. If you think about it please pray for her to have clear direction and open doors as she is feeling out the city. I think that she will do great here!!
My friend Doug Addison has be posting Prophetic Words of the day and today's was:
"Connecting with people will renew your vision this weekend. Rise above your current situation and watch God move."
So good!!
~Alicia
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Day 25
So I started looking up auditions on Backstage today. Let me tell you it is a bit overwhelming. Not quite sure where to start really. Clarity and patience is definitely going to be needed. Both of which are not always my strong suits. Focus, Focus, Focus!!!
......
Alicia
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Day 24
I had a random day today. I spent most of day trying to focus on God. To realign my thinking. Read some of Pastor Bill's book "The Supernatural Power of the Transformed Mind". Which was very helpful. At around 6:00pm I was checking facebook and I saw my friend Doug Addison post that he was in NYC and going to be filming at TBN studios starting at 7:00pm. I used to work with Doug and his wife Linda when I lived in LA over 6 years ago. He is this amazing Prophetic Evangelist who God is using in amazing new ways. One of the ways is prophetic tattoo interpretation. Which is two if my favorite things the prophetic and tattoos!! :)
Anyways, I have never really seen a TBN show so I did not know what to expect. Luckily the studio was pretty close to my apartment and I was able to get ready and be there before the show started. Then all of a sudden Carmen came onto the stage. If you who don't know who Carmen is... well you are young, and also thanks for reading. I grew on watching and listening to Carmen. He is a Christian music artist with such songs/videos as Radically Saved, the Champion, Satan Bite the Dust, and of course Witches Invitation. I used to love watching the VHS tapes of his concerts and music videos. Again, young people a VHS tape is what movies used to be on before DVD's.
It started off a little awkward. Because they are taping the show at the beginning everyone has to stand the clap for what seemed like a good 5 min. Then Carmen sang a few songs to start the show. Doug was the first guess and Carmen introduced him as the Tattoo Prophet. When Doug came onto the stage, I don't think people where expecting him to look... well like Rod Stewart. Doug did great as he talked about what tattoo interpretation looked like and how it has opened up doors to people who normally would not be opened.
There were some great other guess as well. There was this german lady named Rose Marie Hackenberg who had written a book about her life from prostitution, drug and alcohol abuse to her meeting Jesus. She came onto the stage looking so proper and polished but let me tell you she had a fire in her that had that place on its feet. There was also these 2 guys who started a church in Deer Park, Long Island called Sound of Heaven ... oh did I mention that there are professional wrestlers. Their ministry sounded just as unique as Doug's.
Afterwards I got to walk and chat with Doug a little. It was really good to see him.
I love fun randomness with God!
-Alicia
Anyways, I have never really seen a TBN show so I did not know what to expect. Luckily the studio was pretty close to my apartment and I was able to get ready and be there before the show started. Then all of a sudden Carmen came onto the stage. If you who don't know who Carmen is... well you are young, and also thanks for reading. I grew on watching and listening to Carmen. He is a Christian music artist with such songs/videos as Radically Saved, the Champion, Satan Bite the Dust, and of course Witches Invitation. I used to love watching the VHS tapes of his concerts and music videos. Again, young people a VHS tape is what movies used to be on before DVD's.
It started off a little awkward. Because they are taping the show at the beginning everyone has to stand the clap for what seemed like a good 5 min. Then Carmen sang a few songs to start the show. Doug was the first guess and Carmen introduced him as the Tattoo Prophet. When Doug came onto the stage, I don't think people where expecting him to look... well like Rod Stewart. Doug did great as he talked about what tattoo interpretation looked like and how it has opened up doors to people who normally would not be opened.
There were some great other guess as well. There was this german lady named Rose Marie Hackenberg who had written a book about her life from prostitution, drug and alcohol abuse to her meeting Jesus. She came onto the stage looking so proper and polished but let me tell you she had a fire in her that had that place on its feet. There was also these 2 guys who started a church in Deer Park, Long Island called Sound of Heaven ... oh did I mention that there are professional wrestlers. Their ministry sounded just as unique as Doug's.
Afterwards I got to walk and chat with Doug a little. It was really good to see him.
I love fun randomness with God!
-Alicia
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Day 23
I was a bit more productive today. It was a little touch in go for a while but I did manage to accomplish a few things: clean room, laundry done. I even went through some old Acting schools notes. Yesterday I picked up a couple of books that I am excited to start, "The Power of the Actor" and "Accents: A Manual for Actors". I have always wanted to be really good with Dialects so I hope this will help get me started.
My friend Malachi and I are going to start working on our monologues this week. We will be filming and then critiquing them. This will be helpful for a couple of reasons. Such as, it will show us how we come across on film: what our mannerisms are, how the character is actually coming across. As an actor you know how you see the character and how you want others to see them. Filming the monologues will help us to see if our portrayals are true to the characters. It will also help us get used to watching ourselves on film. In school I found it very hard to watch myself on film, as they say "you are your own worse critic". I would always think things like, oh man that is how I looked when i delivered that line... no good.
It is also good to have at least 4 monologues, so I just need... 3 more :). But the one I do have is a really good one (thanks to Tiffany Williams) so it is a good start.
Well that is all for now.
-Alicia
My friend Malachi and I are going to start working on our monologues this week. We will be filming and then critiquing them. This will be helpful for a couple of reasons. Such as, it will show us how we come across on film: what our mannerisms are, how the character is actually coming across. As an actor you know how you see the character and how you want others to see them. Filming the monologues will help us to see if our portrayals are true to the characters. It will also help us get used to watching ourselves on film. In school I found it very hard to watch myself on film, as they say "you are your own worse critic". I would always think things like, oh man that is how I looked when i delivered that line... no good.
It is also good to have at least 4 monologues, so I just need... 3 more :). But the one I do have is a really good one (thanks to Tiffany Williams) so it is a good start.
Well that is all for now.
-Alicia
Monday, August 13, 2012
Day 22
I love Malachi Mondays!! It was such a great day! A little Jeremy Renner, lunch, Barnes & Knobles, and a showcase featuring the amazing MJ.
I love days where you get to spend time with genuine people. Good conversation and quality time!!
Until tomorrow....well technically today :)
-Alicia
I love days where you get to spend time with genuine people. Good conversation and quality time!!
Until tomorrow....well technically today :)
-Alicia
Sunday, August 12, 2012
Day 21
Today was a really good day!! First I went to church with Jacob and Alden. Pastor Carl's message was amazing and very good timing for me. One of my favorite quotes "You better learn to find the JOY in this journey, because the journey is what it is about". He talked about surrendering your plans and baggage. So good!!!
Then food shopping. Got some really good for me food... now I just have to ACTUALLY make my meals :)).
Tonight was the first time I was Head Stage Manager for the 2 evening services at Irving Plaza. I was a little nervous at first but everything went well.
All in all it was a good day! Now to start this new week.
Good times ahead!
-Alicia
Then food shopping. Got some really good for me food... now I just have to ACTUALLY make my meals :)).
Tonight was the first time I was Head Stage Manager for the 2 evening services at Irving Plaza. I was a little nervous at first but everything went well.
All in all it was a good day! Now to start this new week.
Good times ahead!
-Alicia
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Day 19 & 20
I have been seriously lagging in my daily blogs. Mostly because there has not been really anything to report. I had not been feeling well the last few days and so have been doing... nothing. I started this blog so to be accountable for goals that I was setting for myself. I did pretty good for the first week, but not so much the rest of the time. I have been going to CrossFit for the most part but my eating healthy and no TV watching has not been that successful.
I have always been great at helping other people with their dreams and visions but put mine on the back shelf. Always with the thinking that I will get to them eventually. Well that time is here and what have I done with it? Nothing. I literally have done nothing the past few days. Yes I was not feeling well for a couple of them but it is more to it than that. I don't know if it is fear, self doubt or just lack of disciple when it comes to going after what I was created to do. To really step out and be me. To forget what I may look like on the outside and know I am a good person. Not just by what I do but who I truly am. Sometimes I just feel numb towards my life. Like it will never be anything more than a dream so why even try. I know what that sounds like. I know that it is NOT truth, nevertheless that is what I feel/think a good portion of the time. I am 32 years old- no kids, not married, pretty much unemployed.
Don't get me wrong there are some amazing things in life right now. I live in NYC rent free in a great area. I have some really amazing friends here and ridiculously supportive family in friends in CA. I go to a great church with some great people that I am starting to get to know. So it is not that I hate my life, its just at times I feel indifferent towards it.
I am not telling you this to make you feel sorry for me or worry about my well being. I am just trying to be open with what I have been going through. Being open and vulnerable is not an easy thing. Always affraid of what people may think if you truly let them see you. Maybe that is what this blog is truly about for me. Maybe it is teaching me to be more open, more vulnerable, more real. All these things are very important not just in life but in Acting. When you act you are all these things. That is what makes people connect to characters. To feel for them. To understand them. Maybe learning this here will help me to achieve all the dreams I have for myself. Or maybe people will just think I am mental... lol. I'm not by the way... well not all that time anyways :)
I have 10 days left on this and hope to fulfill them to the fullest of when I started. Thanks again to everyone taking this journey with me. Your comments and encouragement have been awesome!!
xoxo
Alicia
I have always been great at helping other people with their dreams and visions but put mine on the back shelf. Always with the thinking that I will get to them eventually. Well that time is here and what have I done with it? Nothing. I literally have done nothing the past few days. Yes I was not feeling well for a couple of them but it is more to it than that. I don't know if it is fear, self doubt or just lack of disciple when it comes to going after what I was created to do. To really step out and be me. To forget what I may look like on the outside and know I am a good person. Not just by what I do but who I truly am. Sometimes I just feel numb towards my life. Like it will never be anything more than a dream so why even try. I know what that sounds like. I know that it is NOT truth, nevertheless that is what I feel/think a good portion of the time. I am 32 years old- no kids, not married, pretty much unemployed.
Don't get me wrong there are some amazing things in life right now. I live in NYC rent free in a great area. I have some really amazing friends here and ridiculously supportive family in friends in CA. I go to a great church with some great people that I am starting to get to know. So it is not that I hate my life, its just at times I feel indifferent towards it.
I am not telling you this to make you feel sorry for me or worry about my well being. I am just trying to be open with what I have been going through. Being open and vulnerable is not an easy thing. Always affraid of what people may think if you truly let them see you. Maybe that is what this blog is truly about for me. Maybe it is teaching me to be more open, more vulnerable, more real. All these things are very important not just in life but in Acting. When you act you are all these things. That is what makes people connect to characters. To feel for them. To understand them. Maybe learning this here will help me to achieve all the dreams I have for myself. Or maybe people will just think I am mental... lol. I'm not by the way... well not all that time anyways :)
I have 10 days left on this and hope to fulfill them to the fullest of when I started. Thanks again to everyone taking this journey with me. Your comments and encouragement have been awesome!!
xoxo
Alicia
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Day 17 & 18
Not much to report about yesterday. Did not get done many of things I wanted to. I did work on my monologue a bit, so there is that.
I woke up this morning not feeling very well. I think I am fighting something off. So I did not go to CrossFit today. I ended up going back to sleep and not waking up until 1:00 pm. I'm still feeling kind of gross but hopefully I will feel well enough to go to CrossFit tomorrow.
Sorry not very exciting stuff to read. I will work on that :)
-Alicia
I woke up this morning not feeling very well. I think I am fighting something off. So I did not go to CrossFit today. I ended up going back to sleep and not waking up until 1:00 pm. I'm still feeling kind of gross but hopefully I will feel well enough to go to CrossFit tomorrow.
Sorry not very exciting stuff to read. I will work on that :)
-Alicia
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Day 16
Well I over estimated what I could get done today :)). However, I did go to CrossFit... two days in a row. Yay for a rest day tomorrow!! It was a good workout, but I banged up my nose a little. Actually it was kind of embarrassing. We were supposed to do frog stands and hold them for 10 seconds. For any of you who don't know what a frog stand is, it is where you place your hands on the floor and put your knees on the back of your upper arms. Then you try to balance just on your hands. Well I was balancing and could feel myself going forward too much but then my hand got trapped and I landed... right on the bridge of my nose. Smooth I know. Luckily it did not bleed but I have a little "road rash" at the top of my noise. I had broke my noise nearly 14 years ago but it never really healed right, so it hurt quite a bit. I just hope that I do not get a black eye from it. It might make auditions a little awkward.
As for all of my other tasks, I did pay my bills and worked on some acting profiles. That is about it. I will have to finish the rest tomorrow as well as go and get my head shots and resume printed.
I did make it to Sisterhood at my church! It was amazing!! We had 2 services and both were beyond packed. Priscilla Shirer spoke and it was incredible! I feel very blessed to be going to Hillsong NYC!!
Tomorrow NEEDS to be a productive day for me. So if you think about it please pray and/or send thoughts of productivity my way :). No procrastination!!
As always, thanks for listening!!
-Alicia
As for all of my other tasks, I did pay my bills and worked on some acting profiles. That is about it. I will have to finish the rest tomorrow as well as go and get my head shots and resume printed.
I did make it to Sisterhood at my church! It was amazing!! We had 2 services and both were beyond packed. Priscilla Shirer spoke and it was incredible! I feel very blessed to be going to Hillsong NYC!!
Tomorrow NEEDS to be a productive day for me. So if you think about it please pray and/or send thoughts of productivity my way :). No procrastination!!
As always, thanks for listening!!
-Alicia
Monday, August 6, 2012
Day 15
Half way there!! So far this weeks has started of better than last week. I went to CrossFit this morning, even though, per usual, I had to convince myself to go. I am glad that I did though, it felt good to have accomplished something for the day.
The rest of the day I spent with my amazing friend Malachi!! First we went and watch Total Recall, then had lunch/early dinner. Then hung out on my terrace and talked. I always have a good time hanging with Malachi!!
Tomorrow should be a busy day... Crossfit, Trader Joe's for groceries, pay bills, finish my website and research for auditions. Then off to Sisterhood at my church. If I have time I will get my headshots and resume printed.
Guess I should get to bed! Goodnight all!
-Alicia
The rest of the day I spent with my amazing friend Malachi!! First we went and watch Total Recall, then had lunch/early dinner. Then hung out on my terrace and talked. I always have a good time hanging with Malachi!!
Tomorrow should be a busy day... Crossfit, Trader Joe's for groceries, pay bills, finish my website and research for auditions. Then off to Sisterhood at my church. If I have time I will get my headshots and resume printed.
Guess I should get to bed! Goodnight all!
-Alicia
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Day 14
Today was another good day! Pretty low key, but spent some time with great people. First my amazing friend Jacob came to church with me! Usually I am in the back serving with the great Stage Management Team, which I love doing. However, it was really nice to be in service just receiving.
Then headed over for the Stage Management Team meeting where I sat among some of the greats like Anna Browning and Janice Wooten (there is your shout out Janice)! Besides working on my website, that was pretty much my day.
Excited and a little nervous going into this new week. I thought last week was going to be better than the one before, and well it was not. But that is in the past (literally) and there is no use focusing on what I did not do. Instead, I will focus on what I am doing and will do.
This week I start working out 4 days instead of 3, Mon/Tue & Thu/Fri. The only reason I would change that around is if I get called to do some extra/background work or get asked to be the lead in the next blockbuster.
Hey you never know :)
-Alicia
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Day 13
Today was a bit of a lazy day. This morning I helped Estelle get ready to go Cape Cod for 2 weeks. They invited me to come up at some point if I want as well! So fun, I have never been there. I might go for a couple of days toward the end of their time there.
Then tonight I went to the screening of Terminal Legacy. My friend Brian Kazmarck, wrote and directed it! So proud and honored to be there! It was really good!! His feature has been submitted to some film festivals and excited to see where it is going to go!!
I also got to catch up with my favorite teacher from NYFA, Michael Laibson. He is one of my most favorite people and so encouraging.
Good times!
-Alicia
Then tonight I went to the screening of Terminal Legacy. My friend Brian Kazmarck, wrote and directed it! So proud and honored to be there! It was really good!! His feature has been submitted to some film festivals and excited to see where it is going to go!!
I also got to catch up with my favorite teacher from NYFA, Michael Laibson. He is one of my most favorite people and so encouraging.
Good times!
-Alicia
Friday, August 3, 2012
Day 12
Yay for a better day!! Although I did not go to Crossfit today, I did do Tabata squats, pushups and sit-ups in my room. Let me tell you I felt them. Tabata is where you do 20 sec of work and 10 sec of rest for 8 rounds (4 min) each exercise. With a minute break between exercises total workout time was 15 min.
My Score: (You score it by the lowest number of reps in one round)
Squats - 12
Pushups - 5 (I started with 8 for the first few rounds, I hate these)
Sit-ups - 9
I will start back up with classes next week, doing 4 days instead of 3. I still need to get better with the Paleo diet, as well, but I am feeling more confident.
My acting resume is almost finished, just having a few friends looking it over for me. I am printing my head shots in the next few days, polishing up on my monologue and then I will be all set to audition. I am also working on a website and will let you know once it is finished.
Estelle will be gone for the next 2 weeks starting tomorrow. So I am going to submit myself to as much Extra/Background work as I can as well has any auditions that come up. I am a little nervous... and by a little I mean REALLY nervous. But I am trusting that God has me no matter what happens.
Until tomorrow!
-Alicia
My Score: (You score it by the lowest number of reps in one round)
Squats - 12
Pushups - 5 (I started with 8 for the first few rounds, I hate these)
Sit-ups - 9
I will start back up with classes next week, doing 4 days instead of 3. I still need to get better with the Paleo diet, as well, but I am feeling more confident.
My acting resume is almost finished, just having a few friends looking it over for me. I am printing my head shots in the next few days, polishing up on my monologue and then I will be all set to audition. I am also working on a website and will let you know once it is finished.
Estelle will be gone for the next 2 weeks starting tomorrow. So I am going to submit myself to as much Extra/Background work as I can as well has any auditions that come up. I am a little nervous... and by a little I mean REALLY nervous. But I am trusting that God has me no matter what happens.
Until tomorrow!
-Alicia
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Day 11
I am overwhelmed and humbled by the encouragement I have received from people reading me blog. To be honest I did not really think anyone was reading :). I posted yesterday, because I wanted to stay true to my commitment to share my journey... to stay accountable. So thank you so much for your support, it means the world to me!!!
I am doing better today, although I did not do that great with my diet. However, my good friend Kristie Joyce sent me some recipe ideas to help keep it interesting. Another good friend, Daniel Gallagher, told me about an encouraging video regarding CrossFit, about not letting self doubt sabotage you. Talking about putting your body into a position, that your mind will follow. It was really good!! Others of you posted commits or texted me with your support. I am not going to lie I cried a little.
I need to go back to the basics of one day at a time. Working from the level I am at, not comparing or trying to jump ahead. Next week I will start working out 4 times a week instead of 3 to makeup for only working out once this week. I will continue this for the remainder of the 30 days.
Thanks again for coming along side of me on this journey!!
-Alicia
PS. Here is the link to the video I mentioned incase you want to check it out (the video is on the right side of the page). http://journal.crossfit.com/2012/07/cfj-greg-amundson.tpl
I am doing better today, although I did not do that great with my diet. However, my good friend Kristie Joyce sent me some recipe ideas to help keep it interesting. Another good friend, Daniel Gallagher, told me about an encouraging video regarding CrossFit, about not letting self doubt sabotage you. Talking about putting your body into a position, that your mind will follow. It was really good!! Others of you posted commits or texted me with your support. I am not going to lie I cried a little.
I need to go back to the basics of one day at a time. Working from the level I am at, not comparing or trying to jump ahead. Next week I will start working out 4 times a week instead of 3 to makeup for only working out once this week. I will continue this for the remainder of the 30 days.
Thanks again for coming along side of me on this journey!!
-Alicia
PS. Here is the link to the video I mentioned incase you want to check it out (the video is on the right side of the page). http://
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Day 9 & 10
As you may have noticed I did not post a blog yesterday. The last couple of days have been not so good. This started sometime on Sunday and it has taken me a bit to shake this mindset I have been in. I did nothing today... no CrossFit, no diet. Just watched TV and felt sorry for myself.
I'm sorry. I know that I am stronger than this. I feel like this happens every time I am breaking through to the next level in my life. I have been allowing fear and self doubt to sabotage my journey. To keep me stuck in this limbo like life.
With God's grace and strength I will breakthrough and continue on with what I started. Just need to keep my eyes and thoughts focused on Him and everything else will follow.
Prayers and thoughts appreciated!
-Alicia
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